I have moved to a1000590.blogdrive.com oh and the new name for here is a1000590 not hegrenade!!!!!!     so yeah heres a link  MY NEW BLOGDRIVE

Ever so long ago Tony invited me to be an author on here, but never before have I actually written anything. Tony asks why girls like him, what makes him so attractable to girls. I ask myself the same thing, only with guys instead of girls. I asked him so many times, and he always said "because you're beautiful, nice and sweet" or something to the effect of that. I don't see myself as beautiful, I know I'm nice.. so what?, and yes I'm sweet.. big deal. I lie about things when I have to get away with something, I steal, I'm a nice.. sweet.. snake. I miss Tony alot.. I don't know if he writes here anymore and I doubt it. I asked him to take me off as an author but I'm kinda glad he didn't. Tony is very gentle, kind, a sweetheart and a truely goodhearted. Anyone he dates is very lucky to have him and should hold on as tightly as possible (ok, don't suffocate him though lol). They shouldn't be like me though, I second guessed him because he was such a good person and no one has ever been that good to me that I thought it was to good to be true. So when I heard word that he was dating someone else.. I believed them. Instantly thinking.. that's it.. there's his fault.. he was to good to be true. My dreams.. and my heart were shattered. The still are, I still miss him.. I still miss the talks we had, and I miss having his love. I was a fool in giving him up.. so was Christie.. I hope the next girl is smarter. She's probably going to be a beautiful person.. inside and out.

Final Words,
Bubbles aka Courtney

Well Well.

Now tht christmas is over it should be alot easier to breath.   Im only missing one thing this year. That really bad sickness i get every year. Wheres my Pnuemonia? So how was yallz christmas?  Post in taggy----------------------------------------------------------------> But yeah, Moving On. Whoever commented on my Last post...... Ashley, I didnt stop talking to you, I just cant get up before 11am EST.
Oh yeah, Ima post my cellie number up here 570-228-7280. LOL i wanna see who calls. And Ashley, I dont know when a good time to call you is. You gotta let me know. I M me on Yahoo please. Any ladies that read this, Could someone tell me why im so likeable?   Cause im clueless.  I dont think someone that looks like wellllll ........ <a href="http://www.freewebs.com/poorbox/tonygrad.htm">This (Names Tony)</a> should have tons of ppl trying to hang out with him and such. And those that know me, LOl why, ima loser?   I sit at home all day, No job, even tho i am training for boot camp,   OH. lol im dissing myslef, what has this world come to.... lol oh wells. If anyone wants to chat hit me up on my cell.   or on Aim - - - a1000590      MSN - - - tony2385@hotmail.com       Yahoo IM - - - bhkiller23105




Now ima bounce cause i dont really think i said anything in the above Paragraph.      Oh yeah Ashley, you know who you are cause we talk on YIM, But i do like you, and i do want to talk to you. and ima give you a call sooner or later. I just gotta find the time.  Scratch that ima make time now.

I dont know if i mentioned it in an earlier post, but i had a girlfriend named christie. Ive known thi girl for 13 years, and from day 1 ive liked her. Then it all came together and i fell in love with her. Her smile her eyes, her laugh, everything about her. Well just recently we've been going out and such. Basically everything ive ever wanted, i had. I was the happiest person, even my friends new I was truly happy.

Well that came to a quick end. She broke up with me on the term of having a feeling inside. something about it not feeling right, us being together. Then she started to explain that even with this feeling, she cant stand to be away from me, but the feeling hurts her so much. that she cant have the Title girlfriend.

Well this leaves me shattered. Cause i Give the world to everyone im ever with, and She wants so much out of me. We arent together, but its like nothing changed.And i feel even worse, cause she wants to be loved, kissed, hugged by me. I cant do that to people im not currently with. Its not me. She keeps on looking for that one guy thats not gonna hurt her, and she had it. Now she lost it, and is just gonna wind up gettting hurt over and over.

But Im not gonna keep going like this, im just gonna put it behind me and try to lock it away in memories........

Why is it Nice guys finish last?

Well thats enough on that subject ..... moving on ........ The AirForce is getting closer and closer to me. I just have to sign the papers and it will basically be final. But Do i really want to do this?



Ahhhh i cant keep writing, my mind is off thinking thoughts it shouldnt .......

                                                                                                               Tony

Life sux then we die. Oh well. anyway, just saying that im moving. From pa to nj, closer to some friends, but away from good friends. Joining the Airforce, just waiting for my confirmation. Oh yeah, and i remembered i had the xanga this time. Its amazing. Still madly inlove with Christie, but shhhh she dont ....... what am i talking about, let everyone know, oh yeah, she knows to..... but oh welll........ my life is still going downhill, only wanna be uphill is christie............ im outtie

Mood: So very Happy
Music: System of a Down - Toxicity

Heya people, no one ever wants to read this but I'm gonna say something anyway. I got a new job finally. This time I get a full 40 hour work week, a 401k, profit sharing, benefits, bonuses, and promotions, with increased pay. I love it. Theres only one catch, I die in 2 years, yes its true death.

No are you kidding me, im not gonna die, fooled you didnt i? no, didnt think so. Oh Well. But florida is coming very soon. But there is trully a catch with my job. Its with one of the largest companies of the United States. Walmart. . . . .  But hope you all enjoid my little happiness on my job, if not then poo on you.

Hey all just updating my blog, thinbgs are weird
ive moved yet again, because the kid i lived with cancelled the lease.
umm yeah im living in my best friends basement have no one to love, courtney dumped me, oh and my life is dirt.